Well my stint in puppy parenthood is over...and it has been a roller coaster of emotions. Initially, adjusting was hard. I had no idea it was like having an actual baby...having to set her potty schedule and eating schedule and sleeping schedule. I suppose it was good practice for a real baby. This experience has taught me a lot about myself as well. It has helped me to realize how unprepared I am for real responsibility and how controlling and anxious I really am. Scary! I used to think I was a laid back, roll with the punches kinda gal, but apparently when a puppy is involved all bets are off.
But I've also come to have a better understanding of what real unconditional love is. I truly believe that God put animals on this earth to teach us unconditional love. Don't you think? I mean you can be so angry with them and frustrated and the next minute they're happy as clams to see you. Isn't that so neat? I also think I have a better understanding of God's love for us through our relationships with our pets. Having watched the puppy get into trouble time and time again despite my rebukes was hard...but when something scared her or hurt her she came running back to me for comfort and security. And I believe that's what God does for me. No matter how hard I fall or fail, He is always there with open arms...just waiting for me.
So all in all, it has been quite an experience and in the end a bit heartbreaking to give her back, but I know she is well loved and enjoying her life. I am so grateful to my co-workers and roommates for being so accommodating and understanding with the "accidents" and yelling. (Smile) I'm sure they're glad it's all over now. So on to the next project...learning to cook and sew. I've been on this weird domesticating high lately...I've no idea where it's come from, wish me luck!
